But I remember.

I wish I had words to describe the way I'm feeling right now. I think the combination of the sounds of rain and thunder sweeping in from my bedroom window and the fact that no one is responding to my text messages today are striking an interesting emotion within me. I've learned over time to revel in aloneness; to enjoy having quiet time to yourself. But how do you keep that "aloneness" from turning into loneliness? Loneliness is destructive and it's a state of mind which I've recently found myself slipping in to fairly easily. I'd like to say I don't know why, but that would be a blatant and obvious lie. There's only one who knows exactly what I need right now. And I suppose as long as I stay close to Him, the loneliness will pass before it's able to take hold.

Headlights or Starry Nights

Headlights in my eyes, more precious than your life
Blind me with their beauty and glorious gleam
They come to take me home

They only start as stars,
distant in the night sky
Then before I even get the chance to breathe
They surround me
Until a bright, pale yellow light is all I see
You are all I see

How blind was I?
When the sun hides, a deviant mask
The stars, how they strive to shine and be seen
But your brilliant sun was the only comfort my eyes could find
The night so foreign, so unfamiliar
The stars are invisible to me
They simply cannot compare

But who am I to decide
What light my eyes can find
And who are you to say
That all I see is day
The stars cannot come out to play

Who are you?
Tell me, please
Who are you?

I used to know.
In fact, I used to know you well.
But the hands have long since hung lifeless from the face of that clock.
The dust has settled at the bottom of my empty heart
And covered my eyes with specks of gray
A haze that makes my days drag on
A cloud of emotion, of circumstance
The stars are invisible to me
They simply aren’t you

Yet, I ask again
Who are you?

Blue flowers can grow...

God has never, ever let me down.

I awake to the rain,
Your grace
Tapping on my window.

The night has passed
The morning is here,
Your time
Has come

Never was there a better time
To show the world your light
You have been washed clean.


[Just a few blurbs. That will probably end up in a song soon.]

As the rain falls, Your grace pours. [John 3:1-18]

¹ There was a man named Nicodemus, a Jewish religious leader who was a Pharisee. ² After dark one evening, he came to speak with Jesus. “Rabbi,” he said, “we all know that God has sent you to teach us. Your miraculous signs are evidence that God is with you.”

³ Jesus replied, “I tell you the truth, unless you are born again, you cannot see the Kingdom of God.”

⁴ “What do you mean?” exclaimed Nicodemus. “How can an old man go back into his mother’s womb and be born again?”

⁵ Jesus replied, “I assure you, no one can enter the Kingdom of God without being born of water and the Spirit.^b]"> ⁶ Humans can reproduce only human life, but the Holy Spirit gives birth to spiritual life. ⁷ So don’t be surprised when I say, ‘You must be born again.’ ⁸ The wind blows wherever it wants. Just as you can hear the wind but can’t tell where it comes from or where it is going, so you can’t explain how people are born of the Spirit.”

⁹ “How are these things possible?” Nicodemus asked.

¹⁰ Jesus replied, “You are a respected Jewish teacher, and yet you don’t understand these things? ¹¹ I assure you, we tell you what we know and have seen, and yet you won’t believe our testimony. ¹² But if you don’t believe me when I tell you about earthly things, how can you possibly believe if I tell you about heavenly things? ¹³ No one has ever gone to heaven and returned. But the Son of Man has come down from heaven. ¹⁴ And as Moses lifted up the bronze snake on a pole in the wilderness, so the Son of Man must be lifted up, ¹⁵ so that everyone who believes in him will have eternal life.^f]">[

¹⁶ “For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. ¹⁷ God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him.

¹⁸ “There is no judgment against anyone who believes in him. But anyone who does not believe in him has already been judged for not believing in God’s one and only Son. ¹⁹ And the judgment is based on this fact: God’s light came into the world, but people loved the darkness more than the light, for their actions were evil. ²⁰ All who do evil hate the light and refuse to go near it for fear their sins will be exposed. ²¹ But those who do what is right come to the light so others can see that they are doing what God wants."

More to come.