I feel terrible for neglecting this blog as much as I have. I have so many thoughts throughout the day that I know I would like to share with you all, but when I never seem to find the time to actually sit down and type it. Throughout the day, I could sit and type a book for you, but after the fact I feel ridiculous simply outlining my day. Details get lost in my mind and water down all my thoughts and insights. They make my blogs so uninteresting, so I'm attempting to change that.

There's always something in this everchanging life.

In the face of change,
that's when she turned to me and said:
"I'm not sure anymore..."
And there, amidst the waves
and the cloudless skies...
That blanket, the year before...
I watch my life wash ashore.

Have you ever been a part of something
that you thought would never end?
And then, of course, it did.
Have you ever felt the weight inside you,
pulling away inside your skin?
Then something had to give...

And now the lines are drawn...
Is this feeling gone?
The best parts of this have come and gone
and now that is all that this is.
With the reasons clear,
We'll spend another year...
Without direction,
full of fear,
but now things will be different.

There's nothing simple when it comes to you and I...
Always something in this everchanging life;
and there probably always will.
Now that time is getting harder to come by,
the same arguments are always on our minds,
killed this slowly fading lights.

My world is so dynamic. Everything is shifting, changing. Nothing in my life is familiar and I love it. This is the face of God. Seeing nothing but His light in front of me and following it. One step at a time. One day at a time.

I'm loving this new house now, living with my mom and my cousin. It's such a big change from my old house in the middle of nowhere. I'm closer to my friends, closer to the world. It's wonderful. This change was much needed. Now that everything is shifting I can make the lifestyle changes I've been wanting. It's like a fresh start.

College is now a part of my near future. A few months ago it seemed so far away, but the fact of the matter is, it's here and it's now. I'm still not certain where I'll end up, because honestly, I've never gone to college before... This is all new territory for me. It's far from my comfort zone, but I'm walking with the faith of knowing that God is guiding me. No matter what school I choose, no matter what I decide to study, It's amazing that I even have the opportunity to go to college. Some don't even get that. I can't wait to see where my life pans out.

I know one thing is for sure.
The best is yet to come.

Complicity.

So I really underestimated how much of a pain this whole "moving out" thing would be. My mom made some promises that didn't get met. I guess I shouldn't have jumped the gun so much. I was just really excited. I'm not sure when we'll be moving anymore. I only know it will be soon. I should have seen this coming. Nothing this good ever comes easily.

By the way.

I may be moving soon. It's probable that I'll be out of this house by the end of this week. I'm not going far, just to Meadow Pointe. I wish I could give you more details.
All you really need to know is I'm glad.
:)

Good morning, the Sun is rising. (:

Good morning, blogworld. I've had a pretty interesting week. This has been the only real time I've had to sit down and write something. A Sunday morning, when ordinarily I'd be at church, but with certain complications, that isn't happening. I'm home alone, currently. My dog is sprawled out on my bed sleeping. It's kinda cute. :) My mom is out getting coffee. This has been the most peaceful morning I've had in a long time. I woke up with the sun shining through my window and I feel refreshed and rejuvenated. It's a good Sunday. :)

It's been a while since I've written here. Let's just say this, though. I haven't washed my hair since my last post. It sounds gross, I know, but with my hair its really not. My hair just looks like NORMAL hair now. It's not frizzy or dry or nasty. It's got some wave to it. It's nice. But, I'm washing it today so that's all going to be gone soon. Anywho.

Well,what have I been up to lately? This week has been pretty busy. It was a light homework week, so I was able to go to lifegroup on monday and the new wiregrass mall on thursday. :) Lifegroup was interesting. The kids of Wolfrevo/Trinity's Creed are so much fun to be around! I'm definitely lacking in the lifegroup department, however. I wish I could find a group my own age to be a part of. Being a senior now, my age group is a minority at Apex, and most of the people my age are leaders of some sort. So, I'll be looking around and praying for that opportunity to come my way.

The Shops at Wiregrass are very nice. I'm so glad to finally have a mall close to home. I've been there three times since it opened last thursday. XD I have a lot of fun there, even if I'm not shopping or spending money. I've had Moe's five times this week. I think you'd call that an addiction. But all the while, I've had a lot of fun with Abbie this weekend. She colors my world. :)

Well, I've got a lot of work to do today before Apex. Extended Essays and novels and outlines, etc. Wish me luck.